December Depression

Its almost here again…  December.

I have promised myself that I will NOT let myself get depressed again this year.  I will NOT allow the junk my life to spoil the happiest, most loving time of the year.  Now I am  not so sure how I will do that.  I already feel the sadness creeping in…  How can I forget?  How can I see the church decorated in all it’s glory and not remember that day?  How can I listen to the radio and forget Jim Brickman’s The Gift was our wedding song, or that I walked down the aisle to Pachelbel’s Canon when Trans-Siberian Orchestra’s Christmas Canon plays?

Christmas was the inspiration for our wedding.  The beauty and joy of this time of year.  The togetherness, the love, the hope…  Now it is my downfall and I don’t want it to be.  I want to enjoy this Christmastide.  I don’t want to cry when I listen to B101.  I don’t want to deflate when I look out over the sanctuary and see the candles and the greenery and the ribbons.

Friends, what do you do to keep the sadness at bay?